Tuesday, May 6th, 2003 10:10pm: wow like things couldnt have gotten any more confuseing... things are so screwed up... but hey... yea i had a stalker at my school today that fit the description of leah... im keepin my eye on you... katie i kno we will work things out and ull be happy again.. same for you leah, jus wait and see ok?
...i basically did nothing today... im so lazy but who cares... it was tuesday and i wasnt in the mood to work... neways ill catch ya later..
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Saturday, May 3rd, 2003 2:18pm: hmm well the end of the week wasnt too exciting, i went tux shopping and that was less painfull then getting my hair did. but neways i wanted to go driving but i dont have my wallet grr...
well i talked to katie last nite till like 1:30, it was nice her cuz was over and i guess her and hinca are going to prom.. nothing really to talk about...
got nothin to do today unless katie calls me but who knows... yea i woke up and was talking to her and her cuz was all argueing with me over lizzie mguire and i won, definatly lol
well ill prolly find something to do and write about it tonite so cya later...
10:50pm: ALL I GOTTA SAY IS SCREW IT, WHO CARES OBVIOUSLY YOU DONT, HA AND PEOPLE SAY THEIR LIFE IS A JOKE
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Thursday, May 1st, 2003 10:08pm: hmm well nothin much to say cept tryin to get her to be a believer, i couldnt leavr her if i tried.. this is like the best song ever lol
I was tired of my lady, we'd been together too long.
Like a worn-out recording, of a favorite song.
So while she lay there sleeping, I read the paper in bed.
And in the personals column, there was this letter I read:
"If you like Pina Coladas, and getting caught in the rain.
If you're not into yoga, if you have half-a-brain.
If you like making love at midnight, in the dunes of the cape.
I'm the lady you've looked for, write to me, and escape."
I didn't think about my lady, I know that sounds kind of mean.
But me and my old lady, had fallen into the same old dull routine.
So I wrote to the paper, took out a personal ad.
And though I'm nobody's poet, I thought it wasn't half-bad.
"Yes, I like Pina Coladas, and getting caught in the rain.
I'm not much into health food, I am into champagne.
I've got to meet you by tomorrow noon, and cut through all this red tape.
At a bar called O'Malley's, where we'll plan our escape."
So I waited with high hopes, then she walked in the place.
I knew her smile in an instant, I knew the curve of her face.
It was my own lovely lady, and she said, "Oh, it's you."
And we laughed for a moment, and I said, "I never knew"..
"That you liked Pina Coladas, and getting caught in the rain.
And the feel of the ocean, and the taste of champagne.
If you like making love at midnight, in the dunes of the cape.
You're the love that I've looked for, come with me, and escape."
"If you like Pina Coladas, and getting caught in the rain.
If you're not into yoga, if you have half-a-brain.
If you like making love at midnight, in the dunes of the cape.
You're the love that I've looked for, come with me, and escape."
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Uhh... Wednesday, April 30th i think, 9:51pm: lower... half... of body.... aches... oww.... must not go to skool..... damn im already in skool..... must sleep during bio.....
why does she always change the subject
does she ever lie to me
why doesnt anyone tell me whats happenening
why cant we be together
i want a chance
how come things are so bad
why do i have to go to school tommorow
do i really deserve this
i wish she would make things happen
why do i always have to wait
why are things like this
why are things like this
why are things like this
why doesnt she love me?
why....
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Tuesday, April 29th, 2003 9:04pm: today i hurt my knees again, well i got like nothin to say now, i will be doing my webpage more
man i hope i get my work done
maybe tomorrow ill be the life of the hallways
i wish i didnt have to mow tomorrow
maybe tomorrow will be the day she notices
maybe tomorrow ill get a job
hopefully im not too tired in the morning
i wish i could remember that stuff about those things
maybe after school ill have some fun
maybe tomorrow night will be the night i finally click with someone
maybe tomorrow there will be that love letter in my mail ive been waiting for
oh who am i kidding, it never comes
i hope me and my friends do something cool tomorrow
we're the cool kids
maybe tommorow she will relize what she has
i hope the dentist doesnt drill too deep
i hope tomorrow is better than today
i hope tomorrow is better than today
i hope tomorrow is better than today...
i hope tomorrow...
i hope...
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Sunday, April 27th, 2003 9:44pm: wow spring break... interesting things just love happening to me... well we got a puppy for those of u who dont know, and hes getting better but hes still a spaz.. i dunno i went to this german shepard thing today and it was kool, they train the dogs to like attack and protect its pretty cool... tho my dog was fighting with all the other puppies and of course he won every time cuz hes cool like that...
...i talked to leah all weekend and i got to see her, i dont know if its good or bad... whether im setting myself up for a fall again, i dont know how im gonna deal with it in a month from now... i started talking to her sb, shes really cool i like her and that just adds to the trouble im causing...
..ahhh so skool tommorow... christ i dont know how im gonna handle another month and a half of it... its just so blah... and i wish people were more open with me becuz i need to know certain things but they just dont wanna talk about it which is getting very frustrating and is wearing me down but hell i still go back...
...and so i havent heard anything from either hockey team... im starting to worry... its just hockeys my life and i dont know what i could do without it... a lot of nothing i guess... and im in pt again with this girl that looks just like leah which just adds to the stress lol...
...i got my permit too... ---joy--- and i havent been able to go driving at all... grrr my moms in florida still and my dads been busy with work... grrr sometimes i just wanna go away... and i havent talked to kt k in a while and im starting to get worried... i just dont for some reason and now that im not going to the band trip i feel even worse...
...ahh the band trip... hahaha
...what about it you ask? well its on the same day of this function i was asked to at another school with this person who well i dno... things are so MESSED UP
...29 days and counting till sweet summer vacation... prolly wont be too good this year tho... dammit i hate it everytime something good comes back into my life it just either turns bad or never reaches me.. i hate it.. why doesnt she just stop thinking and just act?!? it feeels like some sobby teen movie with the happy ending at the end of an hour of jack shit... cept mines been going for a year now... god i should just move and get the hell out of here... i can too... leave everyone and start over but SHE would get over it eventually and thats what makes me hurt even more...
...well this is the end for this day... who knows when im gonna write next... but i can say i will have a lot to tell you... cya later
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